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Apr. 20th, 2006 @ 10:03 am update
Current Location: TLCC @ school
Current Mood: hungryhungry
Current Music: heavenly broken....the veronicas
So yea i know its been forever since ive updated....so.....i have a lot to say but ill make it short.....everything is ok in my life....not great but no bad....just ok.....school is almost over....i hope i dont fail all my classes....ive slcked A LOT this semester so i dont doubt it if i do fail a couple.....im not with as some people would call him "the asshole" anymore....we broke up almost a month ago...and of course it was all him. so a week after we broke up he had a new girlfriend. whatever. shes cool i guess. could be worse. anyway. so who knows whats gonna happen there. anyway. so i was upset about that and then i got in touch with an old b/f that i went out with for a year and a half when i was like 10. lol. we started talkin a week ago. hung out over the weekend. super sweet guy till last night. he randomly sent me a text message sayin that we could only be friends and that he didnt want a relationship. ok. whatever. u should really tell me that before u give me one of ur shirts with your cologne on it to sleep in, before you ask me wether i want stay in lakeland for the summer or go back to orlando(ucf), and definitely before you tell me that u want me to come to orlando to hang out with you when u do go back in the fall. Ummm....leading me on. YES.....so anyway....i was upset about that last night. right when i begin to feel happy again, it never fails that something happens to where i go right back to square 1. so anyway. i guess u could say the love part of my life is not goin so well. the home life is good though. me and my mom r as close as ever. shes helped me through all this shit once again. i love her dearly for that. anyway i guess thats all. i just cant wait for school to be over and be stress free and have an awesome summer like im anticipating!!!! I LOVE YOU ALL!!!
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Dec. 25th, 2005 @ 08:24 pm haha
Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

In June I ate my brussel sprouts (1 points). In July I bought porn for [info]independenta16 (10 points). Last Saturday I punched [info]holliberry2 in the arm (-10 points). Last month I ruled Iran as a cruel and heartless dictator (-700 points). Last Wednesday I farted in an elevator (-6 points).

Overall, I've been naughty (-705 points). For Christmas I deserve a moldy sandwich!

Sincerely,
cowchik14

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Dec. 3rd, 2005 @ 01:34 pm such a great song
this song is so true....its exactly how i feel right now....thanks megan for shring this with me....i cant express how much its exactly how i feel!!!....if for some reason a certain person reads this....i still love you and this song is for you..by the way its call a year from now by across five aprils


Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours.
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step that you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark,
And I still have these memories,
But we'll never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember. cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish I'd have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real.
You said they were.
What happened?
You were a priority,
Was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
you knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm sorry that wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember the things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
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Nov. 14th, 2005 @ 11:41 am i'm gonna make it
When can my heart beat again
When does the pain ever end
When do the tears stop from running over
When does "you'll get over it" begin
I hear what you're saying
But I swear that it's not making sense
So when can I see you

When can I see you again
When can my heart beat again
When can I see you again
When can I breathe once again
And when can I see you...

i dont understand how you can do this to me...its absolutely killing me.....and you walking right past me today and not even looking at me broke my heart all over again....i cant eat, i cant sleep, i cant think....im driving myself crazy....im gonna make it though...im gonna wait....i just keep praying that a) you come back and b) its sooner than later....you dont understand what this is doin to me....everytime a truck with exhaust drives by i look and hope its you but it hasnt been yet......so i guess ill just keep praying...i love you james gordon prue!!!!!
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Nov. 13th, 2005 @ 05:45 am (no subject)
well i offically dont know how I'm goin to live.....me and m/f broke up fri night over somrthing stupid...actually he broke my heart and doesnt even care.....he says he has to think about some things...basically hes throwing away a 7 month relationship b/c i have some faults that i can work on and b/c he wants a girl who won't care when he hangs out with his guys including his best friend derek......and apparently he thinks im tryin to come between him and derek....which ive never once done anything to make him think that but ok.....i have a convo with derek last night about 11:30 cuz jamey was sleeping or something.....and he kinda in a way made me feel better....A) b/c he wasn't being a jerk....he was being sincere.....everytime i talked to prue he was bein a jerk cuz he didnt want to talk to me....but anyway bck to my convo with derek.....i dunno i actually slept last night after i talked to him.....although he told me i need to give prue space and thats not what i want to do i guess i have to....i guess ill have to sit here and wait as long as it takes to make prue realize that i can wait for him and that i am willing to work on my faults....and that I AM the right girl for him....ive always been there for him and i always will be and he's helped me through some realy hard times recently with my papa dying and stuff and i can't let him go....ive fallen in love for the first time and im not willing to give up this easy....and i know he isnt either....so please just pray for us and me and him.....pray that he makes the right decision and that he makes his own decision.....and pray for me that no matter what the outcome of this is that i'll be ok....cuz right now im not doin good at all....thanks....
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Oct. 12th, 2005 @ 09:41 am (no subject)
http://www.theledger.com/apps/pbcs.dll/section?Category=magazinef&mode=2&Page=100


go to this page and find Ashley!!!!....lol....i was just lookin through this magazine via interent and found ash!!! take a look
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Oct. 4th, 2005 @ 08:14 pm (no subject)
my papa passed away this afternoon at around 2...please continue to pray for my family and I.....thanks...i love you all
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Oct. 3rd, 2005 @ 09:17 am (no subject)
my papa is not doin good....he's in "Transition Period"....basically he could pass any day now.....please pray for my family and I as we are facing a very hrad time right now...
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Sep. 30th, 2005 @ 10:28 am (no subject)
Current Mood: tiredtired
so i havent updated in a long time....im definitely back at CFA....my other/new job was HELL.....i hated it...so yea im back with my old crew.....i loved you all too much to leave....so anyway

school is good...im in computers right now...im definitely not paying attention...lol...but im doing really good...im pretty sure i have all a's and b's...so its good

life is good....stressful but good....my family is goin through a lot right now....but hopefully it will all be over soon....

my papa is doin really good....he is getin stronger every day...so that makes me happy!!!

october is gonna be a great month...heres why:
Oct. 14th- Lakeland vs. GJ!! go eagles!!!
oct. 23rd- Cfa event...ASH-we're gonna kick butt in football!!!
Oct. 27th..my boo's b-day!!!!!
oct 29th- BROOKS AND DUNN WITH MY BABY!!!!!! im so excited!

anyway theres more goin on but i cant remember what!

so life is good as i said....thats about all thats been goin on! nothin to interesting really...so hope everyone is well....i love you all!
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Sep. 6th, 2005 @ 04:33 pm its official
so yes its official....after 2 wonderful but long years at Chik-fil-a...I'm leaving....I work tomorrow night 2-close and saturday night 2-close...then i'm done...its sad...but its time to move on...plus i found a new job with set hours, weekends off, and better pay....im still gonna practically live at CFA but it wont be the same as working there...i've met so many good people and have so many awesome friendships....

i get to work with tarte for the last time tomorrow night...and aylssa on sat. night....tomorrow night should be fun though......no crying ashley tarte....just good times!!!!....im gonna miss you all but i still love every one of you. even bill..:)

anyway....just wanted everyone to know....oh eya i almost forgot...this past sat. was my last time workin with bekk(im gonna miss ya girlie) and the last thing she got to do for me beofre we left was write an accident report.....i definitely knocked my jaw out of place.....yes..out of place.....it hurt so bad....how did i do this u might ask....with the stupid tea urn handle.....i was carrying it back for jodi to wash and it was full and i was setting it down to drain and somehow the handle banged me right in the side of my mouth....yea...it hurt...i started cryin....so...the only choice i had was to pop it back in place.....so i did....i screamed but i did it.....anyway the point to this lil story is thanks bekk for everything...i love ya chic!

ok well...thanks all...back to school tomorrow...blah....i have my first college test...and of course it has to be in MATH...my least favorite subject....oh well!....ok..well ill have more later...i love you all!!!
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